Isaiah 6:8 And I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?” Then I said, “Here I am! Send me.”
Are you ready to go? Can He send you?
Many times I’ve read this text, and thought it would apply to me when God called me to a physical place, a specific ministry, maybe some type of mission, something obvious. Send me. (Somewhere cool, right?)
Instead, I’m beginning to see the Holy One is sending me somewhere I never thought I’d fear, but I do. A place I didn’t know I could be “sent”.
My marriage.
In the darkness that is addiction, infidelity, infertility. Loss, despair, frustration, broken hearts, shattered dreams. That’s where He is asking me to go.
Let’s be for real, it’s not like I have a choice. I am here. This is my life to live.
I can however, choose how to live. Do I follow His way? Do I use this season to seek Him and bring Him ALL the glory?
Let’s talk about what happened before Isaiah offered up himself to go on a mission that couldn’t have been pleasant.
He SAW GOD.
Isaiah 6:1 In the year that King Uzziah died I saw the Lord sitting upon a throne, high and lifted up; and the train of his robe filled the temple.
And
Isaiah 6:5 And I said: “Woe is me! For I am lost; for I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts!”
He was literally “undone” in His presence and was immediately aware of his own sin and the condition of his own heart.
It’s hard to just blindly follow the plan of someone you don’t know, right? But, God wants to be known and SEEN by you and by me. He has given us this great book where we can read about who He is and what He promises for us. He offered himself up when he put on skin and walked in humanity. He went to a cross to pay for all of our sins so that NOTHING can stand between us and Him. He has proven Himself and SHOWN us Himself. And when we REALLY see Him, we REALLY see ourselves. And we see that His way, is truly the only way. Now, that I can follow.
Here I am! Send me!
Send me into the darkness of dishonesty, greed, betrayal. Whatever it takes. Send me, because You are Good. Send me, because I can’t make a plan better than yours. Send me, because You’ve proven your love for me time and time again.
For me, that looks like staying in a marriage, when I feel like running. It means looking for the good in my husband, when addiction has taken so much of it away. It means reminding him of his value as a son of The Most High King, and trying with everything in me to love him like Jesus would. It means remembering that Jesus was nailed to a cross for him too.
It means remembering that my sins are heavy. That my heart needs transformation. That he is not the only one in need of forgiveness.
So, God wants someone to step into the storm that currently is my marriage?
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